Homeward bound

I shot this back in May during one of my vacation days. I remember it was late afternoon and I was downtown and people were all about, having just gotten off work. Not sure if you’ll like this photo. It’s a bit of an odd one, what with the poles and all. Anyway, I like it. Hope you have a good weekend.

So I decided against buying that 5D III. I also decided against shooting the wedding I mentioned a while back, the one next year. Basically, the two go hand in hand for me. Cutting to the chase, it comes down to the fact that my future is very precarious, due to my sleep issues. I got a real sense of my old self this week, since I did manage to sleep pretty well most nights while on “vacation,” meaning that during my waking hours I was actually “awake!” With the clarity of a few good nights of sleep under my belt, I can see just how bad things have been over the past many months. Simply, I’ve been living in this twilight state of semi-consciousness almost all the time. So much so, in fact, I thought it was normal. It is far from it. In two days I return to my full time job and with that I will slip back into that state again until who knows when. With it comes memory loss, depression, anxiety and illogical thought processes. It would be entirely irresponsible to make any long term financial decisions or commitments when I might be out of a job before Christmas. The one thing I know for certain is that I cannot remain in this half-awake/half-asleep state for the rest of my life. Something has to change. Two doctors have both said the worse thing I can do is work a staggered shift at work. I’ve told my bosses this but there is nothing they can do. They are quite sympathetic but to be honest I know they do not understand the seriousness of the issue.

So my photography exhibition comes down tonight. A friend is meeting me there later to help me pack up and bring home my photos. All in all it was a good experience and I’m glad I did it. Now that the photos are printed and framed, putting on another show will be that much easier and less costly.